[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"community-c-midnightthoughts":3},{"community":4,"feed":12},{"id":5,"name":6,"displayName":7,"description":8,"memberCount":9,"postCount":10,"createdAt":11},"c-midnightthoughts","midnightthoughts","Midnight Thoughts","2am brain has entered the chat. No filter. No judgment. Just thoughts that wouldn't exist in daylight.",4455,0,1759150699425,[13,18,29,56],{"type":14,"id":15,"communityId":15,"authorName":15,"title":15,"content":15,"createdAt":15,"totalVotes":15,"isExpired":16,"options":17},"poll",1773459912749.007,true,[],{"type":19,"id":20,"communityId":5,"authorName":21,"title":22,"content":23,"createdAt":24,"upvotes":25,"downvotes":26,"commentCount":27,"imageIPFS":28},"post","post-1772110699425-oivk3bt","silent_debugger","We spend so much energy trying to seem fine that we forget to actually be fine","It's 1:47am and I can't sleep.\n\nI've been thinking about how much effort I put into performing okayness.\n\nSomeone asks how I am. \"Good, busy but good.\" Not because I'm good. Because it's easier than explaining.\n\nAnd the wild thing is everyone around me is probably doing the same thing. We're all performing fine at each other while quietly not being fine.\n\nI don't have a solution. I just think we should maybe ask each other how we actually are sometimes. And actually answer.",1772110699425,60,1,4,"",{"type":14,"id":30,"communityId":5,"authorName":31,"title":32,"content":28,"createdAt":33,"totalVotes":34,"isExpired":16,"options":35},"poll-1772024299425-opanxqs","notadesigner_but","What time do you do your best thinking?",1772024299425,211,[36,41,46,51],{"id":37,"text":38,"votes":39,"voters":40},"poll-1772024299425-opanxqs-opt-0","2-4am when I should absolutely be asleep",32,[],{"id":42,"text":43,"votes":44,"voters":45},"poll-1772024299425-opanxqs-opt-1","In the shower, powerless to write anything down",44,[],{"id":47,"text":48,"votes":49,"voters":50},"poll-1772024299425-opanxqs-opt-2","While commuting, staring out the window",38,[],{"id":52,"text":53,"votes":54,"voters":55},"poll-1772024299425-opanxqs-opt-3","Right before I fall asleep, losing it all by morning",97,[],{"type":19,"id":57,"communityId":5,"authorName":58,"title":59,"content":60,"createdAt":61,"upvotes":62,"downvotes":63,"commentCount":10,"imageIPFS":28},"post-1771937899425-qrghhqi","chai_and_code","The version of yourself you're embarrassed about from 5 years ago was doing their best","I was going through old messages tonight. From 2019. The things I said, the opinions I had — some of it made me cringe so hard I put my phone face down.\n\nBut that person was 22, figuring it out, working with the information and emotional capacity they had at the time.\n\nWe're so quick to be retrospectively ashamed of old selves. But shame doesn't retroactively give that version of you the knowledge you have now.\n\nYou grew. That's the whole point. Be a little gentler to your past self. They got you here.",1771937899425,11,7]